{"id":3858,"date":"2014-06-16T23:06:59","date_gmt":"2014-06-17T03:06:59","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.childrenofdarkness.com\/?p=3858"},"modified":"2014-06-16T23:06:59","modified_gmt":"2014-06-17T03:06:59","slug":"life-decisions","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/tlp-guild.com\/uo\/life-decisions\/","title":{"rendered":"Life Decisions…"},"content":{"rendered":"

I awoke in my bed alone; bits of Marius still remained in my room. He left his shirt at the foot of my bed. I smiled softly and reached to it, bringing it close to my face I took a deep breath, it still smelled of him. I got up and wore his shirt while walking through my apartment. I sat on my sofa and picked up my guitar. I softly picked the strings and created new and beautiful melodies. Hours passed until my front door opened to reveal my oldest and best friend, Lestat.<\/p>\n

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The grin on his face illuminated my living room and was contagious. I smiled brightly to him as he sat beside me and kissed my cheek. He wrapped an arm around my shoulders as he always did and listened to my music a bit more before we spoke\u2026<\/p>\n

\u201cObviously, Marius was here last night, with the shirt and loud noises Louie and I heard.\u201d I laughed and nodded, \u201cYes, I was so angry at him, for making me lose Jace, until I saw his eyes. Lestat I\u2019ve never seen him so scared, so, vulnerable, it broke my heart.\u201d Lestat nodded slowly, \u201cHe has a lot to fear, as do we all. The days to come will be hard, trying, and down right\u2026stupid.\u201d I sighed and rested my head on his shoulder. \u201cHe asked me to marry him again, to be his wife.\u201d Lestat smiled to me, \u201cWhat did you tell him?\u201d I sat up straight and looked at Lestat with wide eyes, \u201cI did what any girl in my situation could do, I diverted the question and made love to him!\u201d Lestat\u2019s laugh rang through the apartment and his arm fell from my shoulders.<\/p>\n

\u201cMary! Pandora gave her consent to a common law marriage. Do you have any idea how huge this is!? Any woman would kill to be Marius\u2019 wife, jump on it!\u201d I sighed and threw my head back against the sofa, \u201cIt isn\u2019t that simple! I have nothing but respect for Pandora, I know she wants to be the only one; I was content with being just the Mistress. We were all happy this way but\u2026.\u201d Lestat smiled, \u201cBut Marius\u2019 love is so strong he\u2019s being a greedy bastard and wants you both as his wives. I know, it\u2019s horrid, a stand up guy like Marius, hot as fuck and great in the sack, wanting to be your husband, oh the horror!!\u201d I slapped Lestats chest. He always picks on me when I\u2019m confused. It makes me feel a little better. How I adore the famous brat prince!<\/p>\n

\u201cMary, we both know how deep your love is for him, answer me this, truthfully, and I know when you\u2019re lying to me, If you said no, and tried to find a new love, like you did with Jace, and tried to make it work, can you honestly say you\u2019d be happy, and fulfilled?\u201d I sat there for a long time, thinking deeply and digging for an answer. In the end I knew, there was no other. \u201cI couldn\u2019t be fulfilled and happy, not with anyone else but Marius\u2026FUCK!\u201d I cursed loudly and threw my hands up. Lestat grinned and kissed my cheek fondly. \u201cThen say yes. Marius loves you, Pandora loves you. You\u2019re all happy together. Why fight it?\u201d I sigh, I knew Lestat was right. He was not my sire, but he\u2019s been my teacher since day one. Lestat smiled lovingly to me, \u201cGo to your pent house in New York for a while, or to New Orleans and think things over. Clear your head and then give that man what he wants. You both deserve it.\u201d<\/p>\n

Lestat and I spoke for hours longer, and even wrote new music together, until he kissed my cheek once more and left to go back to Louis. I took his advice and got dressed and immediately headed to the gate to Earth. I made sure to let Pandora know where I would be. Last thing I want is for her to worry, I am after all, still bonded to her. Once reaching the Paris gate, I decided to head to New York. I boarded a private jet belonging to Lestat and made my way to my Penthouse home. I had only a few maids hired by Lestat to look after the place while I was away, other then that I was alone with my thoughts.<\/p>\n

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I took a dip into the hot tub, with a glass of crisp champagne, and soft music playing from my radio. I loved the classical music of Lestat\u2019s time. Hey just because I\u2019m a rockstar doesn\u2019t mean I can\u2019t be interested in other styles, no? I thought about Marius, I thought about Pandora, and the ultimate threat that is the Draconians. I wanted with all of my heart to be married to Marius, to instead of being Mary Drown, I would be Mary Romanus. I\u2019m not stupid, I know my place. I believe that knowing that place is what is preventing me from saying yes. Sighing I rise from the hot tub and dress in my casual black jeans and hot pink t-shirt. I grab a set of keys from the fireplace mantle and make my way down to the garage.<\/p>\n

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I smile when I see her, my beautiful baby that Lestat bought me two years after our career together bloomed. My hot pink Ferrari. I hurried and hopped right in her, and pushed a button making the top fall back. I started her up, oh how I loved hearing her purr for her mommy, I slammed on the gas and tore out of the garage into the streets. My blond hair flew behind me in the cool night air. I was in love all over again! I laughed and all during that drive I felt free, I felt alive.<\/p>\n

I spent a few days in New York until I knew it was time for me to return to Sosaria, the place of my birth. Before returning I stopped at a graveyard. This place held a lot of meaning to me. It is where I first stepped foot outside of the gate, it is where I spent my first weeks on earth, it is where I wrote my first song. I softly sang to myself that song\u2026<\/p>\n

\u201cIn my field of Paper flowers, and candy clouds of lullaby, I lie inside myself for hours, and watch my purple sky\u2019s fly over me\u2026.\u201d I smiled to myself; I finally realized I no longer put myself in that place. I walked with my head high, no longer down. I spoke loud and gave my opinion freely, I no longer sit silent and in fear. I am stronger, I am more alive then I have ever been in my entire mortal and immortal life! Thanks to Lestat I have come into my own person already, thanks to Pandora I have become strong, thanks to Merida I have become more vocal then I have ever been, and thanks to Marius I now know what true love really is. I was once Mary Drown, the governor\u2019s daughter, a little songstress out of Minoc, but now I am The Seductive Mary Drown, Rocker Bitch, and Fianc\u00e9 to Marius de Romanus. I look down at the ring on my left hand…..<\/p>\n

Fianc\u00e9<\/strong><\/em>\u2026. I will have to seek out Marius and make sure he knows that upon my return\u2026\u2026<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"I awoke in my bed alone; bits of Marius still remained in my room. He left his shirt at the foot of my bed. I smiled softly and reached to it, bringing it close to my face I took a deep breath, it still smelled of him. I got up and wore his shirt while … Read more<\/a>","protected":false},"author":0,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"generate_page_header":"","footnotes":""},"categories":[4,30],"tags":[134],"class_list":["post-3858","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-character-journals","category-mary-drown","tag-mary-drown-2","infinite-scroll-item","masonry-post","generate-columns","tablet-grid-50","mobile-grid-100","grid-parent","grid-50"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/tlp-guild.com\/uo\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/3858","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/tlp-guild.com\/uo\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/tlp-guild.com\/uo\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/tlp-guild.com\/uo\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=3858"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/tlp-guild.com\/uo\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/3858\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/tlp-guild.com\/uo\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=3858"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/tlp-guild.com\/uo\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=3858"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/tlp-guild.com\/uo\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=3858"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}