{"id":3947,"date":"2014-07-27T00:12:29","date_gmt":"2014-07-27T04:12:29","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.childrenofdarkness.com\/?p=3947"},"modified":"2014-07-27T00:12:29","modified_gmt":"2014-07-27T04:12:29","slug":"spoiled","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/tlp-guild.com\/uo\/spoiled\/","title":{"rendered":"Spoiled…"},"content":{"rendered":"

I sat in the studio listening to Mary pour her heart into a song for the millionth time since we\u2019ve begun to sing together. A fool would see how down hearted she was about Jace\u2019s death. Damn Marius and his not being able to keep away from the girl. Mary never stood a chance and now she blames herself for his death. I morn with her, the boy was good for her in a way. There is nothing we can do to change what has done, so now we remember him in the good times and move on.<\/p>\n

\"Saphira\"<\/a>
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I felt a sudden presence of a little girl that Merida and Armand were looking after, the girl that Mary had bonded with in music, Saphira. I smiled and spun around catching her in my arms before she could pounce on me as she would normally do to surprise me. I made her laugh and sat her on my lap so she could watch Mary.<\/p>\n

\u201cUncle Lestat, why is Miss Mary so upset?\u201d<\/em> she had asked me. I sighed and explained to her. \u201cShe lost a very dear friend to her, and it hurts her a lot. But not to worry Angel, she will pull through it.\u201d<\/em> Saphira nodded her cute blonde head and watched. \u201cI wish I could sing like her\u2026\u201d<\/em> she said. I could only smile. I coached little Saphira for a while about music, how it comes from everything around her. But the most beautiful of all music comes straight from the heart.<\/p>\n

As I held her I was reminded of another girl, many years ago. My Claudia. A pain shot into my heart and I held Saphira closer to me. I smiled as she snuggled her head against me and watched Mary pour her soul into the Piano. I realized I missed her more now then ever. I will be the first to admit, little girl\u2019s always take my heart. I made it a point to spoil all of my Nieces. But, they aren\u2019t Claudia. I fight hard to put her in the back of my mind. I offered to write Saphira a song, her eyes lit up brightly. I sat with her and wrote, I did not think, I just wrote. But in the end, the song came from my heart, a song to Claudia that Saphira would sing. I heard the girl sing before, and I knew it would be perfection. Call it my selfishness, but I had to direct my feelings into something\u2026no?<\/p>\n

Saphira begged me for a while now to break out the violin. I played it for her once when I visited Earth and now she wanted more. I caved, how could I resist such eyes. I knew the consequences could be harsh if I did it, but I didn\u2019t care. I only cared about making Saphira happy. I played for her; the music came from my heart. My grief for Claudia, my lost childe, my sweet angel love. \u00a0My eyes closed, I heard Saphira begin to sing with the violin. It was beauty in itself; it was everything one could imagine a beautiful love song could sound like. My violin cried loudly, as did Saphira\u2019s voice. To hell with everyone and Akasha if she awoke to the sound!<\/p>\n

When the song was through, I set it down and held Saphira to me, for a split moment I saw Claudia. I felt her in my arms again; I wanted to hold her for eternity. I wanted to cry with her, laugh with her, be her father again. I wanted \u2026what I know I could not have. When I opened my eyes I saw Saphira, my cute little niece. It was enough to nearly make me cry, but I smiled to her. She snuggled in my arms and yawned. I took her up into Louie\u2019s old room and tucked her into bed where she could sleep for the night. After she fell asleep I walked into my empty room, collapsed onto the bed and cried. I cried for what seemed hours. Alone in the darkness I wept for my lost, beloved Claudia, I wept for my mistakes, I wept for myself, knowing I would never get her back. I, Lestat de Lioncourt, the biggest fool around.<\/p>\n

After half the night was spent condemning myself for my mistakes I took up a notebook and pen, and I began to write. I wrote beautiful lyrics for Saphira and Mary both. I wrote songs for myself as well. I wrote things that no one else would ever see, not even my love, my Louie. I sat in my room, wondering how I could ever fix my own mind, how could I ever come to terms with my dear Claudia. I don\u2019t see how Louie does it, but he has, and he has returned to me. That is all that matters I guess. When the sun comes up, I rest, and await the dusk of a new day, a new day I could spoil my special niece rotten\u2026<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"I sat in the studio listening to Mary pour her heart into a song for the millionth time since we\u2019ve begun to sing together. A fool would see how down hearted she was about Jace\u2019s death. Damn Marius and his not being able to keep away from the girl. Mary never stood a chance and … Read more<\/a>","protected":false},"author":0,"featured_media":3948,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"generate_page_header":"","footnotes":""},"categories":[23],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-3947","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-lestat","infinite-scroll-item","masonry-post","generate-columns","tablet-grid-50","mobile-grid-100","grid-parent","grid-50"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/tlp-guild.com\/uo\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/3947","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/tlp-guild.com\/uo\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/tlp-guild.com\/uo\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/tlp-guild.com\/uo\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=3947"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/tlp-guild.com\/uo\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/3947\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/tlp-guild.com\/uo\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=3947"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/tlp-guild.com\/uo\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=3947"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/tlp-guild.com\/uo\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=3947"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}