{"id":4837,"date":"2015-04-23T13:22:59","date_gmt":"2015-04-23T17:22:59","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.childrenofdarkness.com\/?p=4837"},"modified":"2016-04-09T01:44:14","modified_gmt":"2016-04-09T01:44:14","slug":"a-desperate-desire","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/tlp-guild.com\/uo\/a-desperate-desire\/","title":{"rendered":"A Desperate Desire"},"content":{"rendered":"

\"zach-ro-at-school\"<\/a>It has been five weeks since I first laid eyes on her; since I fell in love with her.\u00a0\u00a0It truly was love at first sight.\u00a0 Never have I felt anything as extraordinary or as strong as the love I feel for her.\u00a0 I know she’s younger than me, and that to teenagers 3.5 years seems like a lifetime, but what she’s had to endure has matured her.\u00a0 She’s more mature than most of the girls my age, none of which ever really piqued my interest. Only one to come close\u00a0was Cora, but that was so short lived and she went off to be a warrior trainee at the Warrior’s Guild in Britain.\u00a0 But Rowan, she is the one.\u00a0 I feel it deep inside my soul.\u00a0 With her I feel like I can take on the world!<\/p>\n

It has been just a few weeks since we first made love.\u00a0 It was the first time for both of us.\u00a0 The nervousness I felt was so overwhelming, but the desire I had for her in that moment was so much greater.\u00a0 It won.\u00a0 I didn’t know what I was doing, to be honest, but it seems like nature kinda kicks in and things fall into place where they should.\u00a0 Like I told her, we were made to fit together… it really is divine intervention.\u00a0 God created us to build these deep connections and to ensure our race’s existence through procreation.\u00a0 But of course, babies at our age would be unbelievably stressful.<\/p>\n

Thank God Miss Piper talked to us and gave us sex education we needed to know; we had so many questions.\u00a0 I just kept looking at Ro, wondering what this would be like with her. I think from that day I started to think of her as the first person I would ever try this with. And now after having done it, I am starting to think she will be the last person I ever do this with. I see myself with her forever, and because of her, I don’t want forever to ever end.<\/p>\n

Right now we’re going through a bit of a scare.\u00a0 Apparently the birth control potion that Miss Piper gave Ro didn’t immediately kick in as we had thought. So there is a possibility that Ro could be pregnant.\u00a0 That’s scary!\u00a0 Neither her nor I are ready for such a huge responsibility.\u00a0 I mean I take care of my brother and sister and that’s hard enough, I can’t imagine a newborn.\u00a0 And Ro’s young, as I mentioned, she hasn’t fully developed into a woman for her to be pregnant and give birth.\u00a0 As much as I would love to keep it, because we made love to conceive it, we know if she turns out to be pregnant we will have to terminate.\u00a0 But as I told her, one day I will mean to put a baby in her tummy.\u00a0 I know now through this scare that I would want that with her and often! I can see us having lots of babies together. We would watch them grow and marry them off and watch our grand babies… *sighs dreamingly*\u00a0 Again, I really don’t want forever to ever end.<\/p>\n

Which only makes me think about the people that now surround us; the Romanus family.\u00a0 What would it be to be a vampire? To live forever?\u00a0 I look at Mister Armand and Miss Merida and they seem so in love, so happy together…. and they truly and really get to have that forever! Besides what’s cooler than being able to fly? I know! Spending a real forever with Ro. Now that would be cool!\u00a0 To never be parted from her would be my heart’s most desperate desire.\u00a0 I love her so so much, so completely. I wouldn’t ever want her to suffer through my death or vice versa… I know I couldn’t live without her.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"It has been five weeks since I first laid eyes on her; since I fell in love with her.\u00a0\u00a0It truly was love at first sight.\u00a0 Never have I felt anything as extraordinary or as strong as the love I feel for her.\u00a0 I know she’s younger than me, and that to teenagers 3.5 years seems … Read more<\/a>","protected":false},"author":483,"featured_media":4839,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"generate_page_header":"","footnotes":""},"categories":[4,39,51],"tags":[150,153,180],"class_list":["post-4837","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-character-journals","category-shelter-from-the-storm","category-zachary-taylor","tag-rowan-eladen","tag-shelter-from-the-storm","tag-zachary-taylor","infinite-scroll-item","masonry-post","generate-columns","tablet-grid-50","mobile-grid-100","grid-parent","grid-50"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/tlp-guild.com\/uo\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/4837","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/tlp-guild.com\/uo\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/tlp-guild.com\/uo\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/tlp-guild.com\/uo\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/483"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/tlp-guild.com\/uo\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=4837"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/tlp-guild.com\/uo\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/4837\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":6051,"href":"https:\/\/tlp-guild.com\/uo\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/4837\/revisions\/6051"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/tlp-guild.com\/uo\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=4837"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/tlp-guild.com\/uo\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=4837"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/tlp-guild.com\/uo\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=4837"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}