{"id":5082,"date":"2015-05-22T23:38:34","date_gmt":"2015-05-23T03:38:34","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.childrenofdarkness.com\/?p=5082"},"modified":"2015-05-22T23:38:34","modified_gmt":"2015-05-23T03:38:34","slug":"downward-spiral","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/tlp-guild.com\/uo\/downward-spiral\/","title":{"rendered":"Downward Spiral"},"content":{"rendered":"<p><a href=\"http:\/\/www.childrenofdarkness.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/Ro1.jpg\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" class=\" size-medium wp-image-5083 alignleft\" src=\"http:\/\/www.childrenofdarkness.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/Ro1-300x170.jpg\" alt=\"Ro1\" width=\"300\" height=\"170\" \/><\/a>\u201cNo, no, no!\u201d I resisted the urge to set my harp alight, choosing instead to scream out my frustrations at my inability to play properly of late. Wanting to cry, I glanced down and noticed just how much my hands were trembling. Was the stress getting to me more than I\u2019d thought? I sighed softly as I set the lap harp down beside me, thinking back over the last few weeks. Ever since The Royal Britannian Guard found my aunt, it feels as though I\u2019ve been on a downward spiral.<\/p>\n<p><!--more--><\/p>\n<p>Despite Zach\u2019s best efforts, I haven\u2019t had a proper night\u2019s sleep since Momma and Papa left&#8230; I miss them so much that I almost constantly want to just curl into a ball and cry. My patience has also been wearing extremely thin the last week or so. I even snapped at Brit over telling Frisco about everyone! I was so angry after that argument that I didn\u2019t even care at the time if she hurt herself throwing things around the washroom. It\u2019s so unlike me, and I feel terrible for it&#8230; but even though Zach told me I shouldn\u2019t leave things too long, I just don\u2019t think I can face her right now.<\/p>\n<p>And that last meeting with my aunt&#8230; The Captains looked so surprised, and I even surprised myself with how rude and disrespectful my response to her opinions was. And with how bluntly I told her that I hated her and didn\u2019t want to go with her. I got nervous though when she started yelling and essentially accusing the Romanus family of associating with a known vampire, and even got scared when she began stating that she would never allow them to parade me around such \u2018vile creatures\u2019. I\u2019m not sure what happened after that though&#8230; Captain Anderson escorted me outside to wait with Zach. I managed to calm down a bit with him&#8230;<\/p>\n<p>But then, as I watched her storm out in anger as Captain Erikkson was preparing to take me and Zach home, I couldn\u2019t help feeling a twinge of satisfaction at seeing her so flustered&#8230;<\/p>\n<p>&#8230;does that make me a bad person?<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"\u201cNo, no, no!\u201d I resisted the urge to set my harp alight, choosing instead to scream out my frustrations at my inability to play properly of late. Wanting to cry, I glanced down and noticed just how much my hands were trembling. Was the stress getting to me more than I\u2019d thought? I sighed softly &#8230; <a title=\"Downward Spiral\" class=\"read-more\" href=\"https:\/\/tlp-guild.com\/uo\/downward-spiral\/\" aria-label=\"Read more about Downward Spiral\">Read more<\/a>","protected":false},"author":0,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"generate_page_header":"","footnotes":""},"categories":[4,17,37,50],"tags":[150,179],"class_list":["post-5082","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-character-journals","category-storylines","category-rowan-eladen","category-where-i-belong","tag-rowan-eladen","tag-where-i-belong","infinite-scroll-item","masonry-post","generate-columns","tablet-grid-50","mobile-grid-100","grid-parent","grid-50"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/tlp-guild.com\/uo\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/5082","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/tlp-guild.com\/uo\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/tlp-guild.com\/uo\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/tlp-guild.com\/uo\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=5082"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/tlp-guild.com\/uo\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/5082\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/tlp-guild.com\/uo\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=5082"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/tlp-guild.com\/uo\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=5082"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/tlp-guild.com\/uo\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=5082"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}