My dad rarely spoke about my mother. The pain he felt at the mention of her was so strong… Even though he tried to hide it from me, I could see it in his eyes. A part of him died with her that day. As such, her life and death were one of those topics that I’d long since come to accept as something I’d never know much about. After he died, I simply accepted it as fact that I was alone. Then I was brought here to the orphanage in Umbra and I no longer felt so alone. I’ve met so many wonderful people; my best friends Britney, Frisco and Amira, my wonderful boyfriend Zach, and everyone else that I now consider family.
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Romanus or Razele
It’s always something that has been in question, my sanity. For years I fought an inner war created in my own mind. I fought for the approval of the man I eternally loved and would die for. On a whim I would murder for him. I would pick up tasks impossible for one my age to do alone. Now as I sit back and look at my life now…what a foolish little girl I was. I watched my children and my husband playing near the gate to earth. I watched Marius and Pandora huddled together in an act of pure love. I watched Cherry and my dear sire sister Carrie. This is my family. My heart was theirs..I would fight to the end for them…but there was a nagging bug in the back of my mind I could not be rid of.
Mixed Emotions
I decided that I would go and seek my dad out myself. I didn’t tell Ro because I just didn’t want her to worry. This weekend we are moving into our new apartment and Momma starts her job on Monday at the nursery. So things are starting to settle down here in Umbra. But Anson is demanding payment from me for last week’s work. I cannot keep him on by myself, so I need to find Dad and ask him for money. It’s time to figure out why he hasn’t come back to the farm.
This morning I woke up and headed over to the family farm. I got there and Anson said today would be his last day if I couldn’t come up with what we owed him for the previous week. *sighs* So I gave him whatever I had on me and still owe him 250g. So I got to work, I needed to process all the wheat from our farms into sacks of flour so that I could sell them to the locals. Hopefully for enough money to pay what we owe Anson.
A Desperate Desire
It has been five weeks since I first laid eyes on her; since I fell in love with her. It truly was love at first sight. Never have I felt anything as extraordinary or as strong as the love I feel for her. I know she’s younger than me, and that to teenagers 3.5 years seems like a lifetime, but what she’s had to endure has matured her. She’s more mature than most of the girls my age, none of which ever really piqued my interest. Only one to come close was Cora, but that was so short lived and she went off to be a warrior trainee at the Warrior’s Guild in Britain. But Rowan, she is the one. I feel it deep inside my soul. With her I feel like I can take on the world!