My dad rarely spoke about my mother. The pain he felt at the mention of her was so strong… Even though he tried to hide it from me, I could see it in his eyes. A part of him died with her that day. As such, her life and death were one of those topics that I’d long since come to accept as something I’d never know much about. After he died, I simply accepted it as fact that I was alone. Then I was brought here to the orphanage in Umbra and I no longer felt so alone. I’ve met so many wonderful people; my best friends Britney, Frisco and Amira, my wonderful boyfriend Zach, and everyone else that I now consider family.
Character Journals
Romanus or Razele
It’s always something that has been in question, my sanity. For years I fought an inner war created in my own mind. I fought for the approval of the man I eternally loved and would die for. On a whim I would murder for him. I would pick up tasks impossible for one my age to do alone. Now as I sit back and look at my life now…what a foolish little girl I was. I watched my children and my husband playing near the gate to earth. I watched Marius and Pandora huddled together in an act of pure love. I watched Cherry and my dear sire sister Carrie. This is my family. My heart was theirs..I would fight to the end for them…but there was a nagging bug in the back of my mind I could not be rid of.
The Tribunal of Marius de Romanus, Pt. 1
I knew the time had come. Monday is the Tribunal. David and Maharet had done all they could do, at least I wouldn’t be put down like a lame dog. But I would be away from my family, my Lydia. That hurt me more than anything else. I know that as much as she sometimes gets overwhelmed by my antics, Lydia is actually a very sensitive woman and the knowledge that I am out there somewhere where she can run to is a big comfort for her. I am not sure that anyone would be able to quiet the silence that she would feel if they sentence me to a box. Not even Va’lis, for as much as she loves him and he loves her — it’s not the same. That desperation was one I felt when Lydia taken from me and only when you have that kind of love could you ever truly relate. But there was no turning back now, I must face the music.
Mixed Emotions
I decided that I would go and seek my dad out myself. I didn’t tell Ro because I just didn’t want her to worry. This weekend we are moving into our new apartment and Momma starts her job on Monday at the nursery. So things are starting to settle down here in Umbra. But Anson is demanding payment from me for last week’s work. I cannot keep him on by myself, so I need to find Dad and ask him for money. It’s time to figure out why he hasn’t come back to the farm.
This morning I woke up and headed over to the family farm. I got there and Anson said today would be his last day if I couldn’t come up with what we owed him for the previous week. *sighs* So I gave him whatever I had on me and still owe him 250g. So I got to work, I needed to process all the wheat from our farms into sacks of flour so that I could sell them to the locals. Hopefully for enough money to pay what we owe Anson.